Warning from the last jerk customer. LOL happy Halloween

Jason in style.

Can you say slow at work today?

This was as as was leaving me mum's. My dad was running after me cause I left something as usual

Leaving me mum's heading home

Driving to see me mum

Too cheap to buy a sticker. Typical

Rasturbation Complete

Special thanks to Sarah Baker and her friend in Fairbanks Alaska, Brian B.
And of course special thanks to Aaron Kraten.
This is one of his pieces called Panic that Sarah and Brian Rasturbated for me.

Rasturbation in progress

I'm about halfway done putting this up. It looks awesome. Panic by Aaron Kraten.

Cleaning house

Well I cleaned out the north bedroom today. And I also cleaned out the front bathroom in the house. I picked up the garage a little bit and fixed the lawn mower. This all after doing inventory from about 8am to 1pm today. Derek has moved all his stuff in and I am excited about it.

My feet hurt. I am thinking of meeting Derek up at the fair but I haven't decided yet. I do believe I am going to watch Gov. Huckabee's new tv show on Fox News.

Lets see what else. Oh I have a home phone # now so if I have yet to give it to you let me know.

Oh and I have been trying to pass a kidney stone for the past 3 weeks. They said they might have to do surgery. Well... I hope not.

I might go see my parents next weekend. I am going to get the cattle fence charger and hook it up to my McCain sign so the next jerk that tries to steal it gets the living crap shocked out of him.

Anywho!!! I am off.

So it was fortold
-Bastian

Today

I am at work preping for inventory... Oh how I don't want to be here!!! Just one more week and it will be all over for another year! Thank God! EHHHHHH!!!!

Ex-Boyfriends Car No More

I no longer drive what I like to consider my ex's car. I know drive mine!!!
Its a 2009 Chevrolet HHR SS Turbocharged. It is BLUE!!! 260 HP
The only downside is that it takes premium gas.

I saw you today

Today while at church I saw you and him together. You looked so happy. I wanted to come say hi. But I didn't want things to be awkward for him. Especially I didn't want that for you. You sat 2 rows directly behind me. I don't know if you noticed if I was there or not.

Today was the first time I've cried a lot in a long time.

-Bastian

It

It really doesn't bother me anymore. What you may ask? The fact that you don't care about me? The fact that you ignore me? The fact that you are fake? The fact that you say your my friend but your really not? Or is it the fact that you think these posts are all about you but really just about no one at all? Whatever it is. I don't care. So be dramatic. Be a jerk. Act like your better than me when you really arn't. But yet again... This is about no one. If you are reading this. You are just paranoid if you think this is about you. Because its really about no one. Its the fact that I've been drinking and that no matter how people treat me anymore; I just don't care. So do your worse. I'm ready for the end. And nothing you say or do will affect where we fall or rise in the end. I know where I am going.

Do you?

The fact is... You will never know what all this means. Because like me; you are lost. You think you are self righteous. You think you are selfless. When in fact you are just as selfish as I. Yet I really don't exist. Because all this is; is a voice in an innocent boy's head. My name is Sebastian. This one you call Heath is no longer in control. I am here to stay. Pleased to meet you. I'm sure the feeling are not felt the same. I hope that we will get along... For all your sakes.

So it was foretold

-Bastian

I thought...

That it was going to be awesome. But its not. Everyone is just more distant than before. And I feel more left out than before also.

Oh well.

-Bastian

Get into my head.

Yes I am selfish. I like to think about me. I like to do things that make me happy. Doesn't everyone want to be happy? No matter what you say; in the end; it's all about you. There is nothing wrong with that. Nothing at all. I care about my friends. I try to make them happy. But I have to make myself happy first. If that is being selfish then there is nothing I can do for you. I'm not going to say im sorry for thinking of myself first for once. Forever I always try to make everyone else happy over myself. And as much as I try it is never enough. NEVER!!! So I am done trying to put people ahead of myself. I am going to put myself first. Get over it. Life is just too hard as it is. I'm tired of being sad or depressed over people being upset because I do something for me. I have enough issues with that as it is so I am just going to make it easy. So care or not. I don't!

So it was fortold

-Bastian

Oh yes it's here

Day 13

Inventory is the last weekend in September. I'm only to bin 009. Yet
there is a long road left to travel. I might have to put in overtime
on this. The laptop is geared and ready for renevating upstairs. What
a mess that's going to be. Where is all the time?

Today is crazy doctor day. We recap on the last three months and talk
about things I should be doing. She might start putting me back on
medication. We will see.

I feel like going out. I can't afford it though. So I will just watch
tv instead.

So it was fortold

-Bastian

Do you ever?

Do you ever feel like just running away and not looking back? I have felt like that a lot lately. I don't think I would be missed to much.

-Bastian

Breakfast of champions

WTF

MUHAHAHAHAHA

Are you catching my drift yet?

I'll leave you behind.
It's not the first time
that we've been through this,
it happens every time.
You hear the sound of my name at the top of their lungs.
This dumb game you play isn't fooling anyone.
And now i wanna know
are you catching my drift yet?
(Oh, are you catching my drift yet?
You see to be good at taking control,
are you catching my drift yet?)

Now that we have said goodbye
don't try and fix it up again.
It's my fault that you can't stand a thing i do.
And don't lie cause we know that you want too.
Now i can't seem to comprehend
how the things that you're saying is not what you meant at all.
Because last time i checked
these so called "friends"
were your "friends till the very end".

And now i know that i have made big plans
and i have said big things that i've pulled out of my head.
But these sins are kept in a lot
and have been kept it all,
now a handful is all thats left.
Can you just look at how things were
and how they are right now?
And please just tell me that i am right.
Just tell me why it's so hard for you to be wrong for once in your life


Just tell me why it's so hard for you to be wrong for once in your life


Oh, are you catching my drift yet?

Why is it...

That I can have everything going good, Well for the most part, for me and be so happy but be screaming inside to run away. Last week I was up up and alert and psychotically mischievous about everything. And this week I feel like I am in the gutter screaming for air. I don't understand how that works. And it makes me even more mad to think about it. Why can't I always be happy and full of energy. Last week I was so up on life I could have lost my job and been in a good mood. This week I feel like I couldn't be happy to save my life. Explain that to me please? I wanna know why. Why?

I can't fake this forever.

-Bastian

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The Dark Knight

WAS AWESOME. I give it 5 stars indeed. Probably the best roll Heath Ledger played. May he rest in peace....



He certainly went out with a bang.



So it was foretold.

I wish...

Your friends where there during the bad times too. Wouldn't you want the same?

Sidekick no MORE!!!

Here is a picture of the Sidekick after 3 beatings with a .22 rifle and .40 Glock 40 S&W. In the top left is the hole from the .40 and the other two holes are from the .22.

Here are some more Pictures. This is the back of the phone.

And some pictures of the wall... Don't worry... I made sure it didn't go into the house or hurt anyone before I did it.


This is what happens when you get bored.

I lost 300 lbs on the jared diet

In the car

Were going on a quest for shorts

A Heartbreaking story

Life is a roller coaster

Except for me It goes up about 10 feet and drops about 100. And sometimes I wonder if it will ever get any higher before it end. I think that this Roller Coaster is going to end in a screeching halt with crashing and grinding gears...

So it was foretold.

My back... MY BACK!!!

It still hurts like hell. It's getting a little better day by day. I am taking donations (muscle relaxers). If you got em... Please can I have one?!?!?!


So it was foretold.

I have a problem

I am a slave to new technology. I was going to hold out on getting the
new iphone. But after using Calie's. I just had to get one. It is so
much better. I feel so guilty now. I don't know if it's because I said
I wasn't going to do it or if it was the fact that I maxed my credit
card sending my further spiraling into debt. Oh well...

Calie is sitting outside the at&t store

She got there a little bit before 7 and sent these pictures to me.  Good Luck Calie!

Lifechurch.tv At the Movies Decorations

Seadoo casualty

Jared's foot

Jared takes pictures of himself

Open Carry in Oklahoma

Dear Friends,

I have just read and signed the online petition:

"Open Carry in Oklahoma"

hosted on the web by PetitionOnline.com, the free online petition
service, at:

http://www.PetitionOnline.com/oc4ok/

I personally agree with what this petition says, and I think you might
agree, too. If you can spare a moment, please take a look, and consider
signing yourself.

Best wishes,

Heath Sharp

Sometimes they let us out for smoke breaks

Its hard to read but the sign says Laureate Psychiatric Hospital.

One of the best things in life

Are going to sleep in a bed freshly made up with fresh sheets out of
the wash and dryer. Mmm hmmm.

The website is down!!!!

Second friend

Ever feel like the second friend. I say I don't have any good friends. And then you say yes you do... You have me. Well why is it no one asks me to do anything? They always say well why don't you ask your friends to hang out. Well I do and a lot of times they are doing other stuff. Yet there is only one person that ever asks me to hang out. So I guess I can honestly say I have one great friend. And that's about it. You know what it feels like to be left out? Well I feel that way right now. Left out.

Sorry that's just how it is.

So it was foretold.

Work is so boring on Saturday

Let me tell you how this works...

You tell me what kind of car you have. Better yet give me your VIN, and the name or general description of the part you want and i'll tell you the price and if I have it or not. Other than that I don't want to talk to you. I don't want to hear your story of how this or that broke or what you agenda is for the day or what time you might or might not be here. I am not a therapist. I do not get paid to sit here and listen to you talk about your problems let alone care how inconvenient it is for you to come pre-order your part or why you don't have your title and you lost your key and you are screwed. I DON'T CARE! I get paid to look up parts. That about sums up my job description.

OK im done...


So it was foretold.

Where the Hell is Matt?

Where the Hell is Matt? (2008) from Matthew Harding on Vimeo.

Cat in the hat

You can take your tps report and...

Chris W. Cox from the NRA

Excerpt from: http://www.glennbeck.com/content/articles/article/196/11892/

"GLENN: What happens in Chicago now?

COX: There will be a challenge to Chicago, to the suburbs' bans on handguns, there will be challenges all over the country to total bans on firearms and public housing. Poor people deserve a right to self-defense just like rich people, particularly rich people like Barack Obama who have taxpayer-funded security around them but tell the rest of America that when it comes to self-defense, you're out of luck."


Amen!

Supreme Court Strikes Down D.C. Gun Ban, Upholds Individual Right to Keep and Bear Arms

http://www.foxnews.com/story/0,2933,372041,00.html

WASHINGTON — The Supreme Court ruled Thursday that Americans have a right to own guns for self-defense and hunting, the justices' first major pronouncement on gun rights in U.S. history.

The court's 5-4 ruling struck down the District of Columbia's 32-year-old ban on handguns as incompatible with gun rights under the Second Amendment. The decision went further than even the Bush administration wanted, but probably leaves most firearms laws intact.

The court had not conclusively interpreted the Second Amendment since its ratification in 1791. The amendment reads: "A well regulated militia, being necessary to the security of a free state, the right of the people to keep and bear arms, shall not be infringed."

Click here to read the full opinion on the Supreme Court Web Site.

The basic issue for the justices was whether the amendment protects an individual's right to own guns no matter what, or whether that right is somehow tied to service in a state militia.

Writing for the majority, Justice Antonin Scalia said that an individual right to bear arms is supported by "the historical narrative" both before and after the Second Amendment was adopted.

The Constitution does not permit "the absolute prohibition of handguns held and used for self-defense in the home," Scalia said. The court also struck down Washington's requirement that firearms be equipped with trigger locks or kept disassembled, but left intact the licensing of guns.

In a dissent he summarized from the bench, Justice John Paul Stevens wrote that the majority "would have us believe that over 200 years ago, the Framers made a choice to limit the tools available to elected officials wishing to regulate civilian uses of weapons."

He said such evidence "is nowhere to be found."

Justice Stephen Breyer wrote a separate dissent in which he said, "In my view, there simply is no untouchable constitutional right guaranteed by the Second Amendment to keep loaded handguns in the house in crime-ridden urban areas."

Joining Scalia were Chief Justice John Roberts and Justices Samuel Alito, Anthony Kennedy and Clarence Thomas. The other dissenters were Justices Ruth Bader Ginsburg and David Souter.

Gun rights supporters hailed the decision. "I consider this the opening salvo in a step-by-step process of providing relief for law-abiding Americans everywhere that have been deprived of this freedom," said Wayne LaPierre, executive vice president of the National Rifle Association.

The NRA will file lawsuits in San Francisco, Chicago and several of its suburbs challenging handgun restrictions there based on Thursday's outcome.

The capital's gun law was among the nation's strictest.

Dick Anthony Heller, 66, an armed security guard, sued the District after it rejected his application to keep a handgun at his home for protection in the same Capitol Hill neighborhood as the court.

The U.S. Court of Appeals for the District of Columbia ruled in Heller's favor and struck down Washington's handgun ban, saying the Constitution guarantees Americans the right to own guns and that a total prohibition on handguns is not compatible with that right.

The issue caused a split within the Bush administration. Vice President Dick Cheney supported the appeals court ruling, but others in the administration feared it could lead to the undoing of other gun regulations, including a federal law restricting sales of machine guns. Other laws keep felons from buying guns and provide for an instant background check.

Scalia said nothing in Thursday's ruling should "cast doubt on long-standing prohibitions on the possession of firearms by felons or the mentally ill, or laws forbidding the carrying of firearms in sensitive places such as schools and government buildings."

In a concluding paragraph to the his 64-page opinion, Scalia said the justices in the majority "are aware of the problem of handgun violence in this country" and believe the Constitution "leaves the District of Columbia a variety of tools for combating that problem, including some measures regulating handguns."

The law adopted by Washington's city council in 1976 bars residents from owning handguns unless they had one before the law took effect. Shotguns and rifles may be kept in homes, if they are registered, kept unloaded and either disassembled or equipped with trigger locks.

Opponents of the law have said it prevents residents from defending themselves. The Washington government says no one would be prosecuted for a gun law violation in cases of self-defense.

Vacination 2008

That is an origional Aaron Kraten piece on my wall that Mac gave me.
It is so awesome!!!!

Thank you Mac!!!!!

HP Customer support

They have to be worse than dell. I swear to god. They are now charging me twice for something. Because the dumb woman on the phone earlier instead of fixing my order. She ordered it again and didn't cancel the other order. Now im on the phone and they are not listing to a damn word im saying... Now they hung up on me. Im going to reach through the phone and strangle their customer support moron of a team.


So it was effin foretold!

Picture of the day

Monday

Ugh. I do believe it started early

-VIA iphone

:(

I'm depressed...

And I don't know why.

So it was foretold.

-VIA iphone

At the pool

Spent the whole day in the pool. Sarah laied out with me for a while
then left and went and had dinner with a friend. Michael and Kristen
came over and we had some jello shots and some drinks at the pool. We
later went and got some tiki tourches to keep the bugs away. Holly,
sarah's friend, was over in the pool. Music, drinks, pool, friends,
and lots of fun. It was a good day. Now were watching some movies and
waiting on some pizza.

So it was foretold.

-VIA iphone

Picture of the day

Its the pool

Little lopsitted. But it will work

MY HEART

Picture of the day

So the pool

IS UP!!!! Ok it doesn't look filled up all the way. I tried to put it on the most level surface. But I guess I didn't lay it out right because one side looks a little tucked under. But it will work!

"Damnit Jim I'm a doctor not a pool man!"

Dive in.

So it was foretold.

Picture of the day

POOL!!!

Tomorrow after work... Pending it's not raining. I will be relaxing in the new pool after a long day of hard(boring) yet eventfull work.

Fix you

"Fix You"

When you try your best, but you don't succeed
When you get what you want, but not what you need
When you feel so tired, but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse

And the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone, but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

And high up above or down below
When you're too in love to let it go
But if you never try you'll never know
Just what you're worth

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

Tears stream down your face
When you lose something you cannot replace
Tears stream down your face
And I...

Tears stream down on your face
I promise you I will learn from my mistakes
Tears stream down your face
And I...

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

Stress in a box

I just don't get it. Everyone expects so much out of me. They want me to comment that. Be happy about this. Love this. Allow that. Do this. Say that. I am tired. And then when I say or do what I want everyone is disappointed. I'm being selfish. I am not thinking of anyone else. Well can't I think about me? LIKE EVERYONE ELSE DOES!!!!

Its not far. Why can't people just let me be and take me for who or what I am and quit trying to get so much out of me.

This post is not directed to one or two people. I have felt this way for the last two weeks. Everyone is wanting this and that and whatnot from me. Im tired. I just can't deal with it anymore and keep my sanity. Quit asking for so much. Please!!! Just be happy with what I can give.

Im about to the last of my sanity.

Back to working on getting my computer running.

So it was fortold...

Stress relief aparatus