Why is it...

That I can have everything going good, Well for the most part, for me and be so happy but be screaming inside to run away. Last week I was up up and alert and psychotically mischievous about everything. And this week I feel like I am in the gutter screaming for air. I don't understand how that works. And it makes me even more mad to think about it. Why can't I always be happy and full of energy. Last week I was so up on life I could have lost my job and been in a good mood. This week I feel like I couldn't be happy to save my life. Explain that to me please? I wanna know why. Why?

I can't fake this forever.

-Bastian