Being alone

So this weekend I realized that im stuck in between two worlds. These worlds are 'being left alone' and 'being with someone.' I want both. But at the same time I don't want either. I guess you could say its like being between a rock and hard place. I guess I need to sort myself out. Maybe im looking for something that can't be found.

Maybe I am just not looking hard enough.

Maybe I just need a quick fuck and get over myself and get back to work.

-Bastian Gatten